I’ve never experienced a burn-out before. I always assumed it occurred much like it sounded, a slow burn. I expected to see myself logging in less and less until finally I just gave out. That wasn’t how it went at all. It was a roman candle burn-out. I guess that’s to be expected when I’m burning the candle at both ends.
My home life was a huge unrest to say the least. For those who don’t know. I’m married and raising two children. One is special needs, and the other just has special needs (no official diagnosis or anything). Two and four for those interested. That, coupled with a raiding schedule, guild manager duties, and blogging duties, it was just way too much. I know that now. I knew it before I officially walked away. I suspected it at the beginning.
What’s happened since I’ve left? I kept up with the community for a little while (longer than I expected) but work got exciting and I stopped reading the blogs. I’ve only talked with old guild mates a couple of times. The guild is now completely barren. That was to be expected, and probably should have happened even if I had stayed on. We were struggling to say the least. Obviously I haven’t posted anything to this blog, and I don’t know if anyone still has me in their readers. In other news, I hear there’s an expansion coming.
Which brings me to my next point. I poked my head back into the WoW community the other day only to find out the BlizzCon happened, and the new expansion was announced. Immediately I’m reading through blog posts, blue posts, speculation, and I’m as excited as a kid on Christmas morning! I haven’t played this game since May and I had my mind made up I would buy the expansion…with the full intention of NOT playing it, because after all I don’t play anymore. That’s a touch of crazy and maybe I’m just a fan boy, but like it or not this is who I am.
I’m not saying I’m coming back for sure, but I realized something this past week. I miss this game. I miss this community. The very same community I griped about non-stop for being full of assholes and jerks at the top end. I miss playing a game a company like Blizzard creates. As a software developer they continue amaze me professionally and it’s one of the things I love the most about this game (future post topic for sure).
Maybe I’ll become an alt maniac. Maybe I’ll just invest in professions and play the auction house like I’ve always wanted. Maybe I’ll try my hand at PvP, which I’ve always been terrible at.
Has anyone gone through this? Have any advice for me? Should I go back to my same server or should I just move on? How do I get started down this path in today’s WoW? Also, what have I missed?!?!